Down Down Down

I am so down...

I am so depress...

I am so moody...

I am so stress

I am so tired...

I dislike this feeling.... i dunno how to describe my feeling now... is just like my heart was stuck with a lot stuff and i can't even know what is it....

I hate my life now... but i know i still need to go on although i dislike....

i miss my childhood... i miss my secondary life badly...

i miss my yeewen, sookkuan and HG badly....

I do miss Shir Li and Wai sung too....

this three gang really help me a lot in my pass and u guys are really awesome...

I am sorry if i hurt u guys before... but in my heart... u all will always be my best friend...

especially shirli.... i dunno whats wrong between us...

is just like a wall was blocking us... do u think that?

i trying to fix but i am failed with that.... sorry.....

You all are important character in my life....

stay beside me no matter what mood i am....

Its really cant a find like u all in outside now......

Society are cruel and just like evil....

I need sometime to sui myself in there... cant used with it....

I will try my best to do what i should do....

did well in my college and leave the stupid place~!

For those people who promise me things and now forget already...

i will remember what u say and what u do now...

i am foolish enough to wait for yr word come true....

Friends.... find me when u are free...

I really miss u guys.....

and i need someone to hear me.....

Recent

Well, my blog was going to be a dead blog soon...

I am freaking lazy to blogging here...

Dunno what to blog and nothing to blog too....

The only thing that is special is my birthday on few days ago...

Have a vocation with hiphip during my birthday....

A beautiful beach.... A wonderful surprise.. A great present... A sweet memory....

That is all the things i receive on my birthday.... Is great~!

Besides that, I am tired with my college life that is full of assignment....

I am stressed to face with the exam... course mate... lecturer... and all other things....

College is fun but it also make me going crazy too....~!

Learning to protect myself from others...

learning to read others mind so i wont get hurt.....

A lot of things i still need to learn... I will work hard with that...

Just a word- Thankyou

Thank you for login my blog and blog a touch post for me...

its really surprised me and touched me....

after read that... i can 100% confirm that what u are actually thinking...

is really glad and happy to have you...

Thankyou for your love...

Thankyou for your care...

Thankyou for being with me about 15 months....

I love you my dear.....my love will never change...

Love,peileng~Panpan....

To my dear PanPan,

Time pass so fast,

We has been together until today as the sun shine above us,

Our soul is like crystal hard and clear as many ppl can see,

Relation like I am a bamboo you are tree, I will always stick on you,

I wrote this especially for you,

To prove that my love for you is true,

Never shall I kiss someone else’s lips,

Never will we make any holiday boring,

You are unbelievable beautiful,

When I am near you and see you my heart goes like a roller coaster,

World cannot express what I felt when you stand by me,

You mean so much to me,

I never knew this could be you ar my sweet heart day by day,

I hope you will never go away,

All of you is what I need,

I understand that some time you manja me because of a reason,

Reason of love and care,

And sometime you stick to me because of scare of losing it,

But I can tell you that as long as you love me,

You no need to care what you do,

What I need,

What the time it is,

Because love mean everything to you and me.

Love HipHip^^

Bla Bla Bla~

Its been a long time i never update my blog already...

cause i am so so so lazy and busy recently...haha...

nothing special happen around me...

the only one thing is i have started my college life....

a new environment for me... new friend... new things... new subject...

i feel quite loss when the first day i when to school.... but i am happy to meet my dear friend there..

not much ppl in my class.... no much as what i thought actually...

anyway is ok... sure got chance to mix around with other group of friend^^

Oh ya... I have passed my P license test... yohoo.... waiting my license come out then i can drive already.. haha....

finally i have done this... is have been a long long time i plan to get my license and now i have done it....

My dear yeewen was at NS now.....

miss her badly...hehe.... hope she can enjoy well there and take good care of herself...

Blablabla.....

nothing else to write already.....

erm....

HG~ miss u guys badly actually....

miss our form 5 life... keep chit chat and gossip... is really enjoy and fun with u guys...

no more gossip and chit chat for me now.....TT haiz~~~

Few words for my love one....

hiphip... i am sorry that i use to be so manja sometimes....

hope u will still love me and treat me patiently as before... love u always here...

support every decision u make...

and we must work hard to let our dream come true.. k? promise ya.. muackz~

Love,

Peileng^^

Its U~ My love~

Its you....my dear hiphip....~~
You always stay beside me...accompany me...comfort me when i am depress..moody or in any bad situation.... its really great to have u... really cant imagine if my life without will be how...
thanks bb.... i miss u so much...
Just to tell u i will always love u care u and support u....muackzz....


~Happy 13 months Anniversary~

Bla bla bla

I WANT STUDY AT MALAYSIA!!!
I WANT ~!

Please dun force me study aboard ok???
I cant afford the tution fees.... the accommodation fees....living expenses...blablabla....
feel afraid to study alone there.... the language the culture the food...everythings is just different from here....
i have decide to study here.... will go to register soon too....
wish me goodluck ok??? i need to settle all this things as fast as possible... i have delay it very long time..... hate myself for so useless....
i haven get my P licenses also....i am wasting my time to working as part time...argh~!!!
my plan have been spoil.... ><

What should I do now??
No more tears to cry.....
Its dry.....
Trying to be more strong and independent~
I wish i can be a strong women...~!!!
God bless me.....